Contemplative...

I am suddenly struck by the life that I've been living, and reminded of all the things that I miss, the things that i felt defined me, or at least, demanded so much of my time and effort. I miss the feeling of floating in the pool, feeling so quick and agile, the rush of the game, the beauty of teamwork when it flows so easily, how time slows down when disaster strikes and how it suddenly returns to normalcy when the realization hits you that the danger has passed. I miss having the bigger picture, being able to direct, co-ordinate, support...Heck, I miss my team mates, the times that we shared, the joy and laughter, the bitter taste of defeat and the glory we found even then...just because we held our own against the odds. Those days feel so far away. Hm, fit and tanned vs fat and fair. Ugh. Funny that I should think of all of this while I'm supposed to be studying pharmacology...AND orthopaedics, for the osce this saturday and the CA next tuesday. Ahh, there will always be more studying to be done. Inspiration to blog hardly comes by. haha.

I've forgotten the days when I didn't always think about work. The 'innocence' of youth, haha, innocence from the terrible truth of the never-ending, all-consuming nature of work, left behind, in the dust. I'm plagued with thoughts of work even during our holidays! Which is incredibly stupid, considering how short our holidays are. Hai. I miss those days. When all I thought about was..water polo, computer games, friends and heyheys! Haha. Pharm-inspired nonsense. Ugh, trying to blog and mug concurrently has caused me to lose my train of thought. Oh well, gotta love memories.

Happy Birthday Bean and Christelle!

Here's a nice bright photo from Bean's birthday party last week...I dont have one from Christelles' dinner tonight, yet, but...Happy 21st Birthday!!! To the both of you.. You've both been lovely friends and a blessing to the people around you. Hope you both had a wonderful day!

Haha, first time I've ever written a combined birthday wish. Hm, well, decided to liven this place up a bit. What better to do it than with a nice colourful photo with happy shiny people? Hm... Feeling a little tongue-tied tonight, ironic that I chose to blog tonight too. Here's a verse to think about...

"You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance." Psalm 32 : 7

Here: A passage to deliver the thoughts that are entrenched within my mind, the worries, concerns, the happiness, the sorrow, the words that shouldn't be said, the depths that shouldn't be plunged into, the form that can only be inadequately expressed. There. It's out. If only. If only I were different. Let Him take care of it.